5 weeks ago today..

Today is Parker's Due date....and he is 5 weeks old.

Parker was supposed to be born today.

This kid had other plans.

When you think of it that way, it is totally insane.

It's hard to believe that 5 weeks ago right now, I was sitting in my hospital room, holding my 8ish hour old baby, waiting on all our friends and family to swing by to meet the newest member of our family.

5 weeks ago today, before 4:30am, I thought I had 5 more weeks before I officially became a mom.

5 weeks ago today, before 4:30am, I thought I had 5 more weeks of sleeping. Although, while 4 weeks ago I missed sleep, now on week 5...I am used to sleep deprivation. I pretty much have changing a diaper, making a bottle, and feeding a baby while being juuuuust awake enough to function down to a science. Like I said in a previous status update, I am enjoying our 3am jam sessions.

He opens his eyes a lot during these feedings. He has great eyes, and he usually only shows them to his dad and me. :)

5 weeks ago today, before 4:30am, I thought I would be spending today continuing my prayers that my water wouldn't break at work, I wouldn't poop on the delivery table, and that my baby would be as healthy as healthy can be.

5 weeks ago today, before 4:30am, I was getting beyond anxious to meet Parker. I wanted him here so I could check him over and make sure he was ok. That may have been the scariest part of the whole last trimester. He was real...so real and so close to being here, and who knows how I accidentally messed him up? What if that hot dog I ate during week 28 wasn't warm enough and we are the 1 in a lighting strike chance? (There are SO many food things to worry about!) I needed him here so I could make sure I didn't screw up, I needed to know he was ok. Guess he got sick of my anxiety?

5 weeks ago today, at 4:30am, my world changed- in the best way possible.

How are we spending this important day?

Watching Weeds on Netflicks and cuddling because obviously he realizes what today is and wants to be with me the entire time!

I'm ok with that. :)

Happy Due Date buddy. Love you.

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