Happy Birthday TT!!!!

It's Sunday. Ugg. That means tomorrow is Monday. Double Ugg.

I hate Mondays. Ugg.

I don't feel much like blogging tonight. I want to be off the computer by 9:30 so I can read my new Shape magazine. 

The Biggest Loser starts tomorrow and I'm going to be on my way to being in better shape. I was going to say skinny...but shit. If I just start to feel better about myself...I'll be happy. I have been very uphappy with me for so long, I'm not sure if I remember what it's like to be satisfied with your body. 

I am not looking for "ohh Pam..your beautiful." Yada yada...I'm just being real. I want to feel better. I want to look better. I want to be strong again. This challenge..and all my friends doing it, is going to help me get back to being that! WOO!!!! Love you guys!!!!

So anyways. I decided I want to read more. I got a Kindle and I finished The Help on it, and then bought a Chelsea Handler book..and I stopped reading. I don't think I like it enough. So I'll be moving on. 

I would like to read at least 12 books this year. Some people's resolutions are that they want to read like 25 books. WHAT?! How?! Even when I'm totally engrossed in a book, which does happen a lot, I still don't always have time to read it. I have stopped the staying up til midnight to read thing. I can't handle it the next day. 

I'm so old.

I have also started following a few more blogs..I love them. I can't get enough :)

My friend Leslie started a blog a few weeks ago. She is a new mom to one fantasticically cute little girl. Her blog is a real account of what being a new parent is all about. I love that she isn't worried about people judging her, she writes what she thinks. I love that. We all worry about what other people think too much...who cares?! It isn't their life..it's mine! So anyways...check her blog out. It's pretty awesome.  You'll be glad you did :)

The Cupcake in my Belly

Happy Birthday to one of my favorite people:TT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She is totally going to hate me for putting this up..but it is one of my favorite pictures of all time. It was taking in some random bathroom at my bachelorette party :) 

Her birthday party was last night. We were out til 4. Clearly I love this girl to keep my old lady ass out til that time.

Happy Birthday Tanya...only 3 more years til you have to get a new drivers license!

Peace out!

What I'm Going to Do With my Winnings :)

I have started the Biggest Loser competition with 20 of my friends on Facebook, 20 so far...who knows how many will be in the group by Monday!! I am beyond excited about it.

I'm going to win. Just saying ;)

But seriously, I just decided that when we end in April- if I have lost a good amount of inches. Wait...rephrase. WHEN I have lost a good amount of inches I am going to treat myself to an outfit from Pinterest. 

I was pinning a few things tonight to My Style board and I thought...."hmm. What am I ever going to do with these?" So now I know. I'm going to reward myself with them. :) What better motivation than cute preplanned outfits AND the money from the Biggest Loser pot to pay for them! :)

In all reality it is going to be hard to win. I have 19 other pretty dedicated ladies to compete with, but that is the best part! I am a pretty competitive person, so this will bring that out in me and force to stay on track. I need to stay on track this time.

Let's take a second and pick some outfits out....

I am SO in love with this outfit. If you actually click on the link, the dress is outrageous. Soooo expensive. So this one may just be a dream, but I'd love to wear stuff like this next summer :)

Next.....

I am all about these types of shirts right now because I can wear my boots with the leggings. It is the only way I can wear my boots because my legs are too fat to wear jeans with them...sooooo after April hopefully I could? Anyways. Dig this outfit.

Last one....

 

This is something I would never wear now. I do dark colors, not gray or white. So saying that...this is probably the outfit I would reward myself with. Something out of my box.I am in love with wearing scarves. :)

that is it for now.

Good luck fellow Biggest Loser friends. Enjoy your last weekend..cause next week..we start our journey to being Skinny Bitches! <3.

Workout Today: Walked with Bernie and Thane for about 20 minutes outside. I forgot my gym bag at home..sooooo I didn't have much of a choice. Bernie liked it :)

I PROMISE (again) that this blog is not going to become my workout journal. But it is what I am focused on at this moment...so it is in my blog thoughts. Sorry guys. 

While working out..YES! I worked out!!! I was thinking, "Cripes, I need a lot of stuff to come to the gym!" I knew on my way to the gym that there was no doubt I forgot something. I get there, towel-check, shoes-check...sports bra- fml. I should make a checklist...so I will...and I'll share it with you guys.

Things You Need to Make You Actually Go to the Gym...(bc if you forget just one item you can talk yourself out of going...)

1. Gym Shoes. 

• This is clearly a huge one. Usually I live in flip flops (and I would still be in them at this point Thank you Very Much Crazy Wisconsin Winter! if I hadn't single handedly gotten the dress-code at work changed to "No flip flops unless it is summer."  UGG.) If you forget your shoes, you are out of luck. Working out in ballet flats, flip flops, or shoes from your Junior year of high school...not cool.

2. My Phone and Headphones

• Now that I have a sweet new phone, I can watch Netflix on it. I need to totally be distracted from looking at the time while working out. If I see I have only gone 6 minutes when it feels like 20, I get super discouraged and want to stop. If I'm so absorbed in the Secret Life of the American Teenager that I don't even know 45 min has gone by...I'm fine. 

3. Shower Essentials

• I am OCD enough about how I smell. There is NO way in hell I am going back to work without rinsing off. Shower essentials include: towel (dur), shampoo, body wash and loufa, flip flops (other people's bare feet..eww) and that stupid little towel thing with velcro that my mom also has. Ya, you make fun of your mom for that thing, until you are stuck in a gym locker room trying to figure out how you can make it to the shower without showing off all your goods....which leads me to number 4...

4. Blinders.

• So you don't really need this to get your butt to the gym, but man does it come in handy in the locker room! I am NOT comfortable enough with anyone to just walk around butt ass naked...especially strangers. I always wonder how the old ladies can just walk around, sometimes talking to each other, with their boobs to their knees? How is that ok!? Have you just been around so long that you don't care anymore? Ok, so that probably is it..and I give them some major street cred for still going to the gym. They should actually be inspiration to me. Shit. I take back this whole paragraph. Go ahead older ladies...walk around..talk to each other. Just please, if you come up to me..can you put a towel on? Thanks. 

5. As I said originally, sports bra...a different tank top to put under my shirt..and new under things. 

•  Let's be serious. It's gross if you wear the same under things (all 3 mentioned above) to workout..and then go back to work. Even if you do shower. Maybe some people can do it and not make others gag...I choose not to find out if I am one of those people. (If you are one of those ladies who really don't sweat and just glisten..I'm jealous!) I like being clean after a hard workout..and it allows me to work my butt off and not worry about walking around looking like Pigpen from Charlie Brown with flies all in my business. 

On a different note, I would like to thank everyone who supported me since the last blog. Your support got me to workout today. I was literally moved by how much support I got. Thank you guys!! It means a lot. I loved the texts you all sent me :)

Like I said on FB: I do better if I am held accountable. So here we go. I am accountable to all of you. I hopefully will not longer post my entire blog about this..but I will end it with a quick snipit of what I did that day...sorry, but hopefully it will work :)

Workout today: Tredmill for 20 minutes inclined at 4 or above. Then I got a text from 2 friends...and went an extra 15 minutes at 6 or above on incline. Thanks guys!

Opps. Still Fat.

Well today was the big day...and I went shopping. 

UGGG. This is EXACTLY why I am still fat. 

The Scrapbook Superstore is going out of business and today was the 3rd day of their sale. In my head, I HAD to go. All of the good stuff would have been gone! Legit reason in my head.

The problem. I am so easy to talk out of working out. 

Crap. Go ahead. Judge away. I'm judging me. *stupid me.*

I was looking at some old pictures on facebook...if that isn't motivation I don't know what is. I think I should print some of them out from when Thane and I stared dating. I had pretty arms then. Now I have blobey arms. I have old lady arms. I am NOT an old lady. 

If my friend who has a bum knee can get her ass off her couch and go workout through the pain in her knee.. I..someone who is totally healthy, knock on wood, can do the same. Damnit.

Ok. Pep talk! Boom. Title Belt. I should...go to bed? Ugg. Ok....someone text me tomorrow and be all like "Hey Pam. Remember the pictures from your 21st birthday? Nice Arms!!!!" Then I'll go to the gym for sure. Can it be around like 11:30? Thanks guys.

I promise. This isn't turning into a weight loss blog. My blog can't have a steady topic. I'm too random for that. Silly. 

On another note. I really want to open a scrapbook store. Sigh. I know of a great building, well the spot at least, I have never been in it. It is here in MH on Main Street. My coworker Tracey can have a yarn corner...:) If I had any idea how to run a business I would be so all over it. Sigh. Just another dream. 

I'm done making myself feel like poop. Night all.

Judge me. It may be the only way to get me in the gym!!!! <3.

Tomorrow is the BIG Day

Tomorrow I begin one resolution. "Workout at least 3 times a week." Why didn't I start today you scold? Well...I had the day off!!!!!!! 

Man, such an eventful day. I dropped off THREE bags of clothes to Goodwill. Which loops back to my resolution...they were all clothes that I can no longer wear. I blame it on the gravitational pull of the moon. That stinking MOON! Ugg. Clearly it has gotten a little stronger, and made my body mass expand a bit. Just a bit. But enough so that none of my old clothes fit anymore. I plan to call Bruce Willis and come up with some plan to fix this. Maybe I'll call Ben too. See what he is up to. Liv...forget her.

So anyways. At Goodwill I found a few boxes and a cute snowman statue. The boxes I am currently painting to put in my scrapbook room. It will hold ribbon that is too small or doesn't have a hole in it to fit on my little spindle thing I made. I also got a cool square picture frame. I'm turning it into a chalkboard. Excited!

Next. I went to Home Depot. I had to get chalkboard spray paint, hot pink spray paint (to paint baskets) and a 2x8 to make a sign I'm working on for Valentine's Day. Lemme tell you what. You earn a man card if you carry your own lumber out of Home Depot. "Where did you park?"-guy "Um...at the other end of the lot." "Oh! Ok." Looks around..."Do you want me to get you a cart or someone to help you with this piece of lumber?" "Well, no. I got it? Thanks though!"- me confused why he thinks I need help carrying one lousy piece of wood. "Hey no problem!" Grins like an idiot and clearly thinks I'm tough shit. 

So then I go to the parking lot, set the board down, open the car door..."HA! How is that going to work!?" I turn to some older guy grinning like I'm an idiot girl who bought a board that clearly won't fit in her car and she should have thought ahead and brought her husband's truck. "Ohhhh don't you worry! My trunk folds down!" "Ohhhh!" Says the impressed old guy. "Nice work!" 

Seriously? Like I said on Facebook..if only these guys knew I was doing a sweet girly craft for Valentine's Day. Heehee.

THEN! I met Lilliana!!!!! My friend Staci's new baby girl. She is beyond cute...and that hair! They said she has a mullet. I love it!!! I told them they have to take pictures of it before it goes away! but seriously, that is how much hair she has! They are so much in love with her...its awesome. 

Even better? Hearing Staci's account of child birth....I am ok with not going through it right now! I'll just go visit Lilli and get my fix. ;)

Then I had lunch with my love...on a bucket...in a tore up conference room...downtown. Romance at its finest :) Whatever...I'll take it. 

So what am I doing tomorrow? I am working out!!!! I have decided the only way I'm going to lose weight, and be good at it is if I still eat...but just not so damn much! Portion control. I tried weight watchers recently and I couldn't do it. I just never gave it my all. Well...I am doing it on  my own. 

I need a game plan for my workouts. So tomorrow. Ugg tomorrow. Andrea help me. Well. If I get time, I will do 45 minutes on the tredmill. If I don't have time, I will do 35-40 minutes. Bottom line..I WILL workout. Damnit.

That is all for today loves!

Have a great night :)

50th Post Baby!

This is my 50th post! Not such a huge milestone if you consider that I wanted to blog everyday since I posted my first blog. But 50 it is! 

I feel like I have this problem a lot. I start something and then don't finish it. This blog is a perfect example. 

I keep adding resolutions to 2012. I want to learn how to sew and make a patchwork quilt. 

I once spent my *entire* winter break from college, so that is like a month, cutting out squares for a quilt. My mom told me she would show me how to sew...but still has not had enough time to tackle that task. That was literally 5 years ago. Maybe 4, Either way...a long time ago. Those scraps are still at my moms, in a basket behind the couch, under an inch of dust. Opps.

I tried to start a To-Do list for 2012 to help make my life more exciting. I haven't come up with much. 

I do want to take a class or two at Archivers. I want to learn how to use stamping in card making and other useful techniques. They just never have the classes on days I can do it! Before I forget, I'm going to take a quick break and see if any classes are coming up. 

BRB.

Found one!!!! If they ever answer their phone I will be signing up to do this: http://www.archiversonline.com/events/374  

Excited, but nervous too. I don't like going into new situations and doing things I have no idea how to do...I dislike it even more when I am alone! Anyone want to come with me on Jan 19th? 5:30-8? Lame that this is literally the only day I can do it. BUT it is a day I can do it...so I'm going to. maybe my goal will be to attend a class once a month, schedule permitting. 

I am all signed up! The only person in the class. Geesh. That makes me feel even cooler. 

So the more I try to come up with things for Thane and I to do together, the more things I think of that I want to do and I know he would hate doing. Ha. opps. Any ideas on a good couple fun thing? It doesn't have to cost a lot...just something. 

Ta ta for now!

GO BADGERS!!

The Year of Pam

Everyone makes New Years Resolutions...and sticks with them for about 2 weeks. If that. I usually stick with mine for about one week. If I'm lucky. This year WILL be different. I actually have already put in my planner: Check up on resolutions and highlighted it. So therefore...there is a monthly reminder that I need to get my ass back in gear if I want to achieve anything this year! So with that said...

This will be The Year of Pam. 

What? Ya, you read that right. The Year of Pam. In Chinese years it is the Year of the Dragon. In Mayan years, it is the end of the world. In Pam years...this one is mine. 

I feel that I often put the things that I want on the back burner because I am too worried about what other people need/want. My life is in high gear because I can't say no. I need to slow down my life, so I am going to.

Resolution 1: Every year I say I am going to lose weight. Every year I end up gaining weight. NOT this year. I work in a workout facility and am at the heaviest I have ever been. Pathetic? Yes. I will be working out at least 3 days a week during my break. Not only will this get my butt in the gym and hopefully help me get rid of some of this flab, but it will also make me actually take a break while at work. If I don't workout on my break, I either work through my break or I run errands- at high speed. So not only will working out 3 days a week help my physically- it will help me emotionally. Good. 

Resolution 2: Stop talking and actually do it. The ETSY site I mean. If you have read a few of my blogs, you know that I constantly talk about selling my homemade cards. This year...I'm going to do it. I hope to have it up by this summer. I plan to spend some time every week making a card or two and build up a stock pile so I can put a lot on the site. Thanks to Pinterest, I will not only be selling cards but a few other items such as gift tags and coasters...and whatever else I decide to make. :)

Resolution 3: Make this year an eventful year. In my blog yesterday, I had a hard time thinking of what went down in 2011...which means that I didn't do many eventful things. So I will create a To-Do List, because that is what I do, on fun things that I will either do with Thane, friends, or on my own. Maybe I'll even take pictures of said eventful things and make a photo book out of them. Because that is also what I do. 

Resolution 4: BLOG MORE!!! Enough said. :)

Til tomorrow.......

Peace Out

-Pam